Have you ever stopped and asked yourself, Who am I? Now, ask yourself that again but say it much slower. Who am I? Well, I can tell you I spent a lot of years trying to figure that out. A.D.H.D Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder, defined me pretty much my entire life. I carried those four letters around with me everywhere I went. I tried for a long time to hide it, but the older I got the harder it was. Society had me believing that it wasn't real, that my parents just didn't discipline me enough, but I was never a behavior problem. Sure I had trouble sitting still, and sure I got in trouble for talking in school and not paying attention, but let's be real, so does everyone else.
Here are the facts, A.D.H.D can be crippling, but it can also be amazing. It's really just a matter how closely you want to follow Jesus. It took me many years, and two years of bible college before I realized that I didn't have to carry those four letters with me, and that I didn't have to hide who I was anymore. I traded those four letters in for one letter, the letter " i" During bible college I learned my personality was in the " i" category, which means, God created me to be inspiring, influencing, and impulsive. Something I tried to hide for a long time. After discovering this ground breaking news, everything started to fall into place. In those t:wo years of Bible college I also learned what I already knew, was my spiritual gift. I know you are probably wondering where I am going with all of this, but hanging in there, I'll land this plane soon enough. Remember you're reading a blog wrote by someone with an "i" type personality.
My spiritual gift, is the gift of Exhortation. Jude 1:3 says " Beloved, when I gave you all diligence to write unto you of the common salvation, it was needful for me to write unto you, and exhort you the ye should earnestly contend for the faith which was once delivered unto the saints" Jude was exhorting the people to agonize or struggle for their faith. This is what the person with the gift of exhortation does; It is a call to action. We are highly motivated to encourage believers to grow and mature in Christ.
The moment I surrendered and embraced how God made me was one of the best days of my life. Am I perfect, absolutely not, do I still feel like I am a hot mess that has a hundred projects started and not one finished, you bet! Am I still hard to follow, MOST DEFINITELY, and that my friend is why God created me to be the one that stands behind the curtain and encourages the one in front. To God be the Glory anyway.
Now it's time to land the plane. Friend, Jesus loves you more than you could ever comprehend, and nothing God created was in vain. There is a lot of work to be done during this short time we have on earth, so take the time and talk to God, and he will take that question mark off , and then you can become Who you are.
Much love
Carla
"I will praise thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
Psalm 139:14
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